I must be going through a mid life crisis or something. Or maybe its my horoscope:

From Horizons, Virgo:

This is a time of major transformations on every level of your life. Change is equal to a sort of death, not your own but a change in the way your life used to be. Just because things are different does not mean that somehow everything is ruined, that is not the case. When you let go of the control and the fear of not having control, you will be transformed.

Kind of a scary horoscope, but pretty right on for my life right now. Maybe this is why I bought a hair straightner (I actually bought it before I read the horoscope), and why I have an appt with some famous makeup artist person at Lancome tomorrow. Maybe its also why I went to an herbal store this week, my first visit(to that store), and why I feel the need to seek spiritual advisement. I also feel the need to diet, and eat healthier again. That's hard to do when you are busy all the time, but I am going to try (again).

Hope this message finds you all well. My painting has been at a standstill lately. I am exhausted, most of the time. I will try to resume as soon as possible.
Trish